love ... when you hear the word love, what runs through your mind, what’s the first thing that you begin dreaming of, most people sit there and dream up and fairy tale like Cinderella or snow white. well that’s not exactly the case is it ... when I use to hear the word love it came to me as a Cinderella and snow white tale. always dreaming of a prince coming and sweeping me off my feet and falling in love, getting married and having kids and never worrying about anything ever again .. but then I began getting older and began having boyfriends and the heart breaks. those are what most girls think of, the fairy tales .. we girls grow up believing that love is just some fairy tale that has no wrong ending .. then as I hit around 13 I began thinking fuck love, what the hell is love, love is nothing, its all bad and only heart break ... well people that is partially true ... but when I hear the word love now I get a warm but yet a dick feeling in my gut. love isn’t just some silly fairy tale where a prince comes along, oh no, love is work ... love takes time and hard work ... but let me tell you something in the end its a wonderful thing to have ever experienced ... you take the arguments in the relationship ... some people break up because of arguing so much ... why argue so much? why take your time to bicker back and fourth driving yourself crazy? that’s not love. love is when you can close your eyes. love is the feeling of the butterflies in your gut. love is the sweet sound that tingles in your ears, but then spreads through your body. its like an explosion and emotions within you and its the greatest feeling ever. its like a roller coaster to me. [[my opinion]] when you get in the roller coaster you sit in your seat excited and a tad nervous. whether you've been on 50, 4, or its your first 1 your always excited, but nervous. then u sit there waiting for the man to come by and buckle up your seat. he does it. your heart pumps faster and u feel it beating against your chest. u get those butterflies in your guts but u sit there smiling so BIG as if it was the most greatest thing ever done known to man. then the roller coaster slowly rides up the posts to the top. oh man your feelings are really bubbling now ... you sit at the top of the coaster in your seat holding on, smiling, butterflies, nervous, scared, but amazed, then BOOM your coaster goes speeding down the track ... your going to get to those twists and turns and those bumps that make your mind go AH AH AH! then the coaster comes to an end and you get off relived and smiling and still having the smile, the butterflies, the nervousness, but always relives. and that’s how "love" feels to me ...
Hate ... why do we hate? what is hate anyway? its just some word throwing in the freaking dictionary with and little sentence explaining what it means .. is that seriously what the world is trying to tell me what hate is? I think not .. hates that feeling you get when your super freaking pissed off ... that feeling of rage and envy ... that jealousy and fear .... hate is just a word that sounds bad and is thrown around to often id like to say ... why cant we just say I don’t like you anymore ... or I dislike you ... or why not even be so nice to say I dislike your actions ... or I don’t like what you have done ... but instead us human beings take the easy road out and say I HATE YOU! but why? why should we look another person in the face and say I hate you? is that the easiest way of dealing with yourself? is that seriously what you just meant to say to the person you love, your own family member, a friend ... is it really? when you get into a fight and say I HATE YOU but then when you make up you go and say oh I’m sorry for saying that I hated you, I really don’t. but what your not realizing is when you tell someone you hate them .. it will never erase ... you may forget about it and let it go and be all happy donkey dory but deep inside your heart you know it ate you alive to hear it. you know that it was the worst thing ever to hear. after you say those words you may think something is going to get better, but it never does, take a second and think, after you said I hate you to someone was it really ever just ok after that? is that person still in your life? most people will tell me, no they aren’t in my life, or no its still not ok. hate is such a stupid word that people take for granted and use like its your air or something. hate isn’t anything to me and I regret saying it to the people I have said it to, and if I could take it back I would. hate is like worshiping the devil himself. he wants you to hate he wants you to feel greed, envy, jealousy, and fear and having all those emotions will cause hate. u know what I have to say about hate? I’ve got a 4 letter word and its in the dictionary as well ... BULLSHIT! cause that’s all it is ...
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